A blog… What’s a blog? Who writes a blog? How do you write a blog?! Who would ever want to read MY blog?!! I have talked my self out of this several times. My biggest and best ability is talking myself out of anything… “I’ll be no good” “people will think I’m weird” “I’d be much better off just hovering up and doing the dishes, maybe even paint my nails a different colour and then cook a three course dinner for the family”.
I always have a distraction to stop me from even trying something, anything, as I am convinced I’ll fail and be publically humiliated. Why? Who knows, I think a psychiatrist couch is probably needed for that answer. However, I think I have a better, more fun solution, SNAP OUT OF IT!
I don’t even know who I am, seriously. I know who I’d like to be. I’d love to have pink hair and heavy black eyelashes and make distressed leather and denim look hot but, alas I don’t. I’d look like an awkward over grown teenager (that’s a thirty something Mum with commitments to you and I).
Those clothes may not suit me because I’m no longer pogoing in the mosh pits anymore on a weekend getting covered in heavenly beer. It could just be that the affore mentioned outfit isn’t suitable attire for Mums group, trips to the park and tea in the garden centre. Or it could be the clothes don’t fit the girl any more… This girl’s a woman (eeek!)
Where do I fit now? And how can I still be me split between…. dun dun durrrr THREE CHILDREN! I’ve lost myself in a world of ironing, school runs and leggings. It’s time to find out who the hell I am and what i like!
I have set myself a goal to say yes to much more, seek new opportunities and be braver. I’ll be looking for inspiration in those other independent beings I see out there doing their own successful thing, who I may even envy a wee bit. I hope to meet some new buddies during this quest, make some memories and spend at least 80% of my time smiling.
Please buckle thy braces and come with me! Mrs Shrinking Violet is ready for action!
P.s. I don’t have a degree in English nor think I’m a skilled story teller or writer, but this first blog is my first brave step in to becoming the all new confident me. Feedback is highly welcomed you beautiful readers a massive thank you for taking the time to check it out!